love,

i'm engaged to Taylor Daniel Lautner

end of story.

hahaha.

toodles.

losing hope,

i miss staying up late, onlining.

so today i watched New Moon (like finally) and i am so NOT satisfied with Robert Pattinson's and Kristen Swetart's acting. I sighed almost every time they talk. but lets not talk about the bad stuffs. so like i am in love Taylor lautner!!!! gah. Jacob was very good looking :D

also, jasper, emmet, carlisle (love them)

especially the handsome dad, carlisle. if only i had a doctor like him... it would be great.

so i decided to text you when i was at nando's. i told you i didnt know why i texted you. my hands just grabbed my phone and wrote something and sent it to you on its own. i tried to be normal but i think you knew i was lying. i know that you know that i am so not a good liar. -___- sigh. so yeah, i am still trying to be cool :)

currently addicted to Always Be My Bay by David Cook ;)

without you,

i miss my friends so badly. i miss texting with every single of them. i miss being with them. i miss joking around with them...

sigh... in a very hours this house will be full of people because wanchu's is having a barbecue party. well actually, this house is already full with people. people as in ayahchu's nephews and nieces. they don't quite bother us but yeah, they're here.

i don't know actually what to do but I'm currently addicted to reading eclipse. I'll probably continue reading this when Kelly comes back from her piano's lesson. so yeah, practically its a full packed house currently.

oh and yeah, i am happier without you being anywhere near me. i smiled the moment i woke up because you were no longer in my mind. i don't need to care about someone that doesn't care a bit about me.

so yeah, just so you know... I've gotten OVER you and i am glad about it.

cause without you, i live it up a little everyday.

i'll shine for you,

ARIFFIN <3

AIDID <3

THEY COMPLETELY ADORE ME :D

so yeah, i've havent been writing a lot since i am in KL. i am haptically busy with my lovely cousins. especially Aidid & Ariffin. both of the hottest cousins i have ;) so like probably i am going to watch New Moon with kak yong & kak nyah & kak adah kot.

*EXCITED*

coming undone,

We live and we learn to take one step at a time, there's no need to rush. It's like learning to fly or falling in love. It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen. That we find the reasons why...

tomorrow is Hari Raya Aidil Adha. so i am suppose to wish it here like i use to wish on every event. okay-okay, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA (=

tonight is so boring. i am not texting anyone. can you imagine that. oh wait, i am texting kelly but like not my friends. it has been days since i text with wan. there has been some "problem" between us, sigh. besides that, i don't text anyone else. zulhafiz? he has his life with his special person. + i don't want to text him even if he wants too. nabeehan? ah. good idea. but i don't want to disturb him tonight. the girls are always saving their credits -__- sigh. who else? who else? who else? i am so damn bored. i don't know what to do. texting is addictive and its officially my truly obsession. oh how i love my phone. i cant imagine, me... WITHOUT... my phone. TORTURE -__-

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anyone, text me! -__-

complicated

sometimes i wish that i can tell it all. sometimes i wish i am not me for once. sometimes i wish i can be someone else for one day and have that big experience. sometimes i wish i dont have to pretend that i am okay. currently, i am NOT okay. i am not okay at all -___-

why is this life so complicated,

why cant things go the way i want for once?

why do i always have to be the one suffering...

why do i always have to pretend when i am around people.

why do i care so much about what other people think.

why do i take other people's feelings first and not mine.

why cant for once i say, "i hate you! get you ass out of here!"

-i'm rude -___- sorry.

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& yes i am tired of this complicated life,

disappointed

So just give me one good reason, Tell me why I should stay 'Cause I don't wanna waste another moment in saying things we never meant to say...

i am so tired, i am breathless, i am so restless... i wished i knew nothing, i wished none of this would happen, i wished everything is like what it used to be. i wished i can travel back to the past and change it...

it is so boring, having to stay home and just sit there doing nothing much. i still wish me and my friends were at school, gossiping with one another, teasing each other. especially guys vs. girls. hahaha. memories. i hope the best for all of our future =D

so, a few minutes ago, i signed in at Myspace and then i checked the 'stream' and i saw a picture of a guy kissing a girl. sigh, budak-budak zaman sekarang. i just approved the friend request before, he didn't bother me much but seeing that photo, ugh.... sigh, what is going to happen to this world. people don't care about religion anymore, don't they know what our prophet sacrificed for Islam. sigh, i don't know what to say anymore. i am very very very disappointed.

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

i am tired.

-

I've seen this photo before but it was a long time ago. so yeah, currently our friendship is tight-er than JoBros pants. i don't get why they have to wear tights. it disgusted me, sometimes. i was talking about JoBros. but thanks to them, this quote was 'invented'.

"how about this time, you jump then fall sweetheart?"

all the things around me are messed up perfectly not the way i wanted. its because i haven't been paying much attention on the things i should. I've been playing with the time a lot. I've been completely out of the box currently. plus, i realized that i haven't move on yet. sigh... i cant believe that i haven't, why haven't i, is it that hard? i want to move on and let it all behind, never looking back at the pain. omg, pain.

oh yeah, i so want to watch New Moon at the cinema! seriously excited. i probably watch it when i get to KL. I've made plans with kak Yani already <3

so yeah, i don't know what to write.

sigh.

I'll edit probably.

or just post something new afterwards.

toodles -___-

leaving behind,

so today wasn't what i expected but it was okay. i cant say i hundred percent happy nor hundred percent sad. also i wanted to say Happy Birthday to Harris Sufian bin Ruslan. i didn't quiet have a good cousin-to-cousin relationship with him because i had a fight with him and i am so ashamed because it was entirely my fault -___-

yes, as usual, i texted with a couple of people today. like wan & azim. shocking, i decided to text with his girlfriend to ask about something. sigh. but i didn't feel bad or sad because we didn't talk about him. then surprisingly, he texted me asking what i was doing and i replied. i smiled when he sent me the text but then we text for a while and he 'as usual' vanish! sigh.

i agree with the song, two is better than one but it seems so hard to get the two in the same team, there will be sacrifices, you'll feel as if its not worth fighting for because you'll feel that the other half isn't working as hard as you are... i understood those and it hurts badly. i am tired of all these though i agree. i am done waiting for him and i am moving on... pray for me, pray the best for me.

*gah* talking crap~ hehehehehehehe. this life seriously ain't a fairytale, you don't always get what you want. you don't actually need what you want, that's a fact that i stick on to.

psst... you're on my heart just like a tattoo ;)

loving this moment

nothing else matters

i love my friends so much. especially AIN, FAQIHAH, WAN, HANISAH, ZULHAFIZ, AZIM, AINA, AFIQAH, NABEEHAN, FARHAN.

a more especially to Ain & Wan! :) also my junior, Puteri Farihah :) hehehe

even though school dah habis ktorang still close jugak and thats what matters the most.

i am so HAPPY :)

i am a Happy Dappy Duck :)

- toodles :)

psstt... i got 5As. alhamdulilah.

also, the day i got my result, i cried T.T

uh, and-and, the last day of school... i cried too T.T

so gonna miss my friends <3

TOMODACHI/CHINGGU/FRIENDS/KAWAN2! I LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS <33

congratulation,

"Alhamdulilah"

so, yes. i got 5As. alhamdulilah! thanks to all yang doakan kejayaan saf :)

thanks to cikgu2, family, friends you guys are the best

so i got the result this morning, cikgu yusoff skipped my name and announced it last haha. then we all cried. ain, saf, wan, hafiz, azim and others cried too. we were so happy :) and shocked~

he got his result.

he stood up after his name was called. wait, he stood up right after cikgu kamarul said something about his nickname. he was with his tears. he was crying even before he got his result, we all knew he would get 5As. he wiped his tears though it kept falling again and again. he walked up to the stage and took his 'result' and went down, still in his tears. he looked at me, probably just because he was passing by me. he walked passed me to his mum who was right behind me. ain, aina & i looked back at him and his mum. he hugged her and gave her the 'result'. his mum said something like, 'ape ni, nangis!' then she laughed and hugged him again, padded his back and messed up his hair. he wiped his tears looking at that girl, then sat back on his seat. -__-

5A.

ain, aina, faqihah, farahin, afiqah.

wan, aiman a, azim, hazim, hakim, yuvan, nabeehan, hafiz, faris, amir.

congrats guys! you've done so well <33>

a special congrats to ain, aina, faqihah, afiqah, wan, azim, nabeehan, hafiz! love you guys lots and lots and lots <333

toodles =)

-__-

Tahap Keyakinan Saya Menurun Sungguh-sungguh.

heart, mind & soul

"Safiyyah has definitely lost her mind,"

today, i am not quite myself today. i started this morning with sneezing here and there, tissues in my hand. i slept with opah because i was so damn tired last night and i dont even know the reason. then i went to school, looking like myself usually but my mood was completely different.

as i arrive, i saw nabeehan and i was like, "NO WAY! HE'S HERE! I DONT WANNA DO IT!" i was screaming inside. luckily we didnt do it, the BBB was cancelled. but faqihah did do it to that specific someone and i actually cant bear standing there, i cant look at his face with a natural easy-going feeling. wan saw what was happening to me, anger was on me, i felt hurt looking at him. so wan dragged me out of the conversation as faqihah talked to him, lying about her feelings towards him.

thanks, wan :))

then we 'bang-bang boom' him and we went back to our work. he was with wan and i went back to read with ain. the other girls were gone, some were playing in the hall, running, hiding, laughing, kicking, sliding, jumping, pulling, pushing all over the place.

then something happened that made me totally NOT in the MOOD for ANYTHING. i stayed silence, staring at people, some looked scared, they didnt even dare to look at me... i ignored most of the people until like, right now.

especially wan.

plus, we are not going to text each other because his stupid phone is still having a problem so i find no time to apologize to him, yet.

BFFs <33

I've been needing to tell wan about this freaking news but sheesh! his phone had a problem and could not send ANY messages, to ANYONE! isn't that just cruel! sheesh! this is so important, plus... i don't think i can tell him at school because it is kind of to 'public'. what am i to do... sigh.

she already found her 'love story', what about mine?

let it go, saf. you're not getting any.

why not? *sulks*

because its not the right time, you'll find yours, soon... promise.

wow! what's with the promises, man? ha ha. but i hope so,

since tonight i cant text with wan or anyone else... I'll be trying to be busy dancing with the stars in the sky, call me if there's anything important. make an appointment with my secretary and then, you can see me. HA HA. *dreaming*

it hurts so much that i can see it right in front of my face that he likes her. he doesn't like me anymore. well, i knew this was going to happen someday but i wished it wasn't near this week, or her! she is like my close friend, how can i stand looking at her face while knowing that you guys like each other. thank god, wan, ain & keah are on my back. i am so lucky =) having them as my best friends. i trust them 100%. others? not that much.... sorry... i want to forget about my 'unidentified' feelings towards him but i couldn't throw it all away. but i followed wan's advise, slowly and steadily... the feeling's slowly fading away but sometimes, i still remember about it... i cant really stand watching him or her for a long time, it makes me hurt. hurt badly, i tell you.

gah, i am such an EMO! but wan wouldn't let me call myself an EMO~

he says it is normal for me to be upset about this... sheesh!

you're one great friend, wan =)))))

toodles :D

DECIDED

When a girl is mean to you after a break-up
she wants you back but she is too scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever
when you catch a girl glancing at you
she wants you to look back and smile
When u break a girls heart
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later
When a girl is quiet
millions of things are running through her mind
When a girl is not arguing
she is thinking deeply
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions
she is wondering how long you will be around
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after afew seconds
she is not fine at all
When a girl stares at you
she is wondering why you are playing games
When a girl lays her head on your chest
she is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a girl says she can't live without you
,she has made up her mind that you are her future
When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that

copied it from KakQai's blog. i've read it once or twice before on myspace.com but i didnt care much about it before. but now, reading it.... wow! i can say some are quiet true. i said 'some' because there are also some that i dont know, yet. and not even planning to know.

i just finished writing the text for Jamuan Tahun 6. i used some of the 'isi' that wan & ain gave me during the evening. well, i bet cikgu kamarul will add more to it because it is quiet short.

toodles. BREAKFAST <3

laziness =)

i just got back from school about two hour.

today was so tiring. reason? because we had a loooooong meeting. we discussed so 'selambe' but then wow! we had a big fight. aina, afiqah, keah, hanisah, uswatul, husna walked away. i went at the back of the dewan and cried softly. ain just followed me with her eyes from afar. wan and zulhafiz just sat watching me from my back. yuvan and hakim just continued playing. azim and nabeehan went to 'robotic'.
i was so pissed!

then the girls got back and all of them sat in a circle. nabeehan and azim wasnt there. i walked slowly, approaching the others. i didn't sat, i was standing between ain and zulhafiz. then aina asked where was nabeehan and azim and i told them they were probably at the computer lab. i went to call them and something made me smile and laughed so hard. nabeehan was clueless, azim was damn shocked.

then, when i arrived at the circle, i sat and smiled at azim none stop. one of the girls said, "nabeehan & azim datang terus senyum," the others just laughed, except for zulhafiz. he doesnt laugh a lot in front of everyone else. then we went for recess and then got back together. we (wan, ain, zulhafiz, saf) we discussed from a while and aina and afiqah came and we were told that we have to go up to our class. we when to our class and afiqah and aina apologized to wan i did too. we all apologized to each other (wan, ain, zulhafiz, saf, afiqah, aina, faedz)

the 6 of us discussed what song we were going to sing, and we laughed A LOT! and again, except for zulhafiz. he did laugh but not as much as any of us did. then aina and afiqah went home and left wan, ain, zulhafiz and i. we discussed some songs we were going to sing and wan was playing around but zulhafiz wasnt that happy about any of the things that happened today, he threw the notebook and went out of the class to 'chill'. wan pushed me out to 'comfort' him. i dragged ain but she just followed and didnt say a word. some of our conversation was,
"relax la hafiz,"
"malas betul la main2 nie!"
"same la kite, but chill la... kena banyak sabar..."
*sigh*
"kamu okay ke, hafiz?"
"okay... kamu yang tak ok kan. kamu yang nangis... relax la saf. okay dah?" *chuckles*
"HAHAHA. okay... tadi terlebih 'emo' je.." *smiles*
*glares*
"kamu pon 'emo' eh!"

after a little chat we went back in and both of us put on a big smile. we discussed and then went home. we were supposed to have a meeting today like yesterday, or we actually call it 'lepak kat sekolah' we get use to do that a lot together nowadays because we are kind of like 'bonding' with each one another. but today we didnt because some were tired.
wan = lazy
zulhafiz = lazy + have to go to a place called 'garden park'. i dont even know where the heck that is.
yuvan = some sort of unknown business
hakim = lazy
azim = i told him not to come
nabeehan = doesnt know
syahmi = doesnt know
ain = have another outing
saf = lazy + opah doesnt give me the permission
hanisah = lazy
aina = doesnt know
faqihah = have another outing
afiqah = have another outing
husna = doesnt know

whoops! toodles. SOLAT ZUHUR TIME =)

yesterday...

yesterday.. wow. too tired to even think about it actually.

too many things happened.

1) Ain and i knew a secret that is so confidential and that secret must be kept from everybody except for the people who already knew (Azim, Ain, Faedz, Saf... and today we're going to share it with Zuhafiz) i hope these are the only people who will know the secret.

2) we discussed about the 'persembahan' we are going to do at the Jamuan Pengawas Sekolah Sesi 2009. it was so awesome, i meant the discussion. we made the decision already. but yeah, the last post was part of our meeting. but that was AFTER the meeting actually. we had so much fun, we shared secrets (not the secret i told you on the [1]) we played squashy, badminton, we dance like crazy and making it more fun because THERE WAS NO TEACHER! kekekekkekeke

whoops, it seems like i have to go and eat my BREAKFAST.

I'll probably continue later, after i get back from school, that is...

ciao, amigos <3

lepak-ing at school in the evening.

saje je. tak de kerja so datang sekolah. ingatkan nak main ape2....

dalam vid nie ada : wan, aina, zulhafiz, yuvan, hakim, yuvan.

safiyyah was just the camera girl. they were discussing what to do to compete.

wan vs. aina & afiqah.

kekekeke... it was so funny when wan crawled here and there. WAKAKAKA.

& about the melaka boy... kekeke. it was aina's cousin. she said he was very good looking and coming from aina's mouth it sounded very soothing because aina isnt the type of girl that agrees that guys are good looking.

psssttt... sorry. asyik rotate jerrr

random photo

a funny pic i found on photobucket. i typed in 'random sign' because i was bored and didnt know what to do and found this weird looking photo. i dont know what language it is but seriously, its weird. weirder than I am.

adding another percent of weirdness in the photo is because there was no 'NO' sign in this sign. if the words that i couldnt read wrote any sign of no, than it minus the weirdness. how could the guy possibly 'checked' the girl's toilet. adding another percent, of course.

conclusion : probably the toilet is next to each other. the people there didn't have enough 'cash' to buy a huge amount of room to make more toilets. i pity 'that' place.

toodles :)

Day 19: We're all mad here.

Day 19: We're all mad here.
Originally uploaded by mishellhead!

:)

Trust,

I've been thinking a lot lately. I've been busy.
I've been drifted to something i liked so much that i forgot about every single thing.

i admit, my life is full of lies. i need a break from every single thing I've been doing and feeling. i want to forget everything for now but i cant. i want to but i cant. i am just too weak.

these past few days, I've been dreaming and minding my own business like a different person that what i really am and i was i thought that i was very satisfied but...
i noticed that i actually changed. i changed a lot. i am not the person i am before.
i don't know whether its a good thing or not. i truly cant decided to be the person i was before or the person i am now.
i missed my old self but i am happy with my new self.

what i know about myself now is that, I've become more happy, loving, caring, understanding, thoughtful on the outside. I'll admit that i cried a lot too but those tears were full of reasons.

i pity faqihah because right now she likes a guy that likes someone else. worse, that someone else is kind of close to me. that means i am kind of stuck in the middle. i don't know what i should do. don't think explaining to the guy would do any help because he doesn't like her anymore. i hope everything would turn out good.

I've been close to her lately which made my people started talking about the reason i wanted to be close to her. its not what you people are thinking. i sincerely want to be close to her again because we used to be so close, like sisters. since the rumor started around at school, they've been saying i had a 'different' reason to be close to her but that was NOT it. if you're reading, then NO, i sincerely feel i want to be close to you again... like sisters. its not because of him. not even close, you should trust me in this. i know you do but i just don't want others to poison you with their lies. sincerely....

you! ha ha. I've been wanting to tell you something but i couldn't. i didn't have the heart. but i am being very calm now.... i don't like you. sorry. but I'm glad that you do. i wish you all the best in life. i guarantee you'll find someone way way way much more better than me. at first, i thought this was a rumor but then i started to notice it. i am so damn sorry because i don't like you. we're just going to stay friends because i know that is way way way better :) i guarantee~

:) okay, huh! I've been feeling cozy around you somehow. i am glad that we could be friends. I'm glad we could start talking. I'm so glad i have someone to count on somehow. i am glad you can accompany me when i am bored. i am glad you are open to me now. i am sincerely glad that we are open to each other now. its nice knowing you better. its nice being friends with you :)

I came apart inside a world made of angry people
I found a boy who had a dream
Making everyone smile
He was sunshine
I fell over my feet
Like bricks underwater

How am i supposed to tell you how i feel
I need oxygen
Oh baby if I was your lady
I will make you happy
I'm Never gonna leave, never gonna leave
Oh baby i will be your lady
I am going crazy for you

And so i found a state of mind
Where i could be speechless
I had to try it for a while
To figure out this feeling
This felt so right
Pull me upside down to a place
Where you've been waiting

and You don't wanna keep me waiting
Staring at my fingers feeling like a fool

Tell me what you want,
Baby tell me what you need....

Oh baby if I was your lady
I will make you happy
I'm Never gonna leave, never gonna leave

seriously....

surveys,

Ily or i love you?
i prefer i love you.

Honestly, is something wrong with you right now?
yes. so many things mixed up =.=

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you, not family?
yes!

Is there something you're looking forward to?
currently, no.

Has 2009 been good for you so far?
so-so

How many people say they have feelings for you?
a couple... lets not remind me :)

Have you kissed/hugged anyone in the last 24 hours?
Hugs~

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
last night? sorta.

What are you doing, besides this survey?
listening to songs.

Do you think anyone is thinking of you?
i hope,

Where is your next vacation?
a couple of weeks from now.... which i dont know why i feel as if i dont to have this long vac!

Did you see a someone today that made you smile?
yes.

Has someone ever told you they will love you forever?
yes.

What are your plans for your next birthday?
i dont plan. i'd rather just forget about MY birthday. no fun!

How many people do you trust 100 percent?
100? err... prolly just 2 ppl~

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
if? haha. prolly.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
no way! i need my tudung,

Is your "best friend" truly your best friend?
yes~ gladly :)

Person you have feelings for shows up at your house, you:
just blushed and ask him what he wants and invites him in...

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Grab your cell phone and get ready!

What is your current ringtone?
- i dont care by 2NE1~

What is your current wallpaper?
a pendrive & a wire~

Do you own a picture phone?
yes~

If so, what was the last picture you took?
me~

Go to your inbox and type what the 10th text message says?
Knape?

How many contacts do you have on your phone?
102 contacts~

Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone?
Faqihah~

What service do you have?
Maxis~

At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service?
77%~

Who's on your speed dial numbers?
my house, wanchik, hospital and etc~

Do you have voicemail?
yes~

How many contacts do you have that start with J- Who are they?
none~

Who do you call the most?
probably home, wan, faqihah.

How many text messages do you get a month?
too many...

Can you send pictures?
yes~

Go to your SENT texts..what does the first one say?
Bukan ah! fizo pon hnsem jgk.........

What about the 15th?
sbb kmu laki2, sbb kmu tgk xda perasaan...

Who's the last person that you called?
aqila~

Last person that texted you?
Zulhafiz~

Last person you added to your contacts?
kak insyirah~

Go down to your 5th contact, who is it?
Abg azizi~

Wanna give out your number?
no thanks :/

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About Me

Name: Safiyyah~

Nicknames: Saf~

Birthday: 18 Jan

Current location: earth~

Hair color: black~

Eye color: brown~

Tattoos: none~

Piercings: none~

Zodiac sign: capricorn~

Your best physical feature: idk. u tell me ;)


Love Stuff

Are you single: yes~

If so, do you have someone in mind: maybe... HAHAHAHA ;)

Who: taecyeon! donghae! haha.. and..... that someone :/

Are you in love: yes, with taec and donghae! <3

Have you been in love before: no~

Have you had your heart broken: no~

Have you knowingly broken someone else's heart: idts~

Would you date someone outside your race: no.


The Last

Hugged: cant recall~

Cried over: cant recall~

Kissed (not family members): cant recall~

Danced with: ain <3>

Shared a secret with: ain and farhan. HEHE~

Called: faqihah :)

Went to a movie with: cant recall. kak liza maybe~

Saw: opah :)


Were angry with: farhan~

Couldn't take your eyes off of: someone ;)

Obsessed over: texting!

Thing you drank: water~

Time you had sex: i dont do sex!

Time you went to sleep: 11 something~

Road trip you took: cant recall~

Last bf/gf: dont have EXES~

Song you heard: Hey Love by Alyssa Bernal~

Movie you saw in theater: jin notti =.=

Person you argued with: farhan~

Thing that pissed you off: farhan :P

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just bored :/

i am satisfied

well, as promised i tried watching the game last night but i ended up sleeping after watching the first half. HAHA. but i texted Abg azizi to text me the result but he DIDNT. i wonder why *angry* but i managed to google the result and liverpool scored 2 while MANU didnt score!

yay!

okay. my handsome torres made the first gol! haha. isnt it awesome. the second one was David Ngug.

yay! i lover LIV :)

haha.. beat that, hafiz, wan! :P

tonight's gonna be a good night

LIVERPOOL

VS.

MANCHESTER UNITED

- well you probably know which team i am on. yes, LIVERPOOL!
gerrard and torres
one of my friend that i usually text asked me 'why do you like liv so much?? beside the existents of mamat2 tu...' and i answered :
maybe sebab darah yg mengalir dalam badan kte ni darah family yang support Liv? haha. i'm talking crap now. jangan percaya. haha.
well, that would possibly be true or what so. i dont know. but what i know...
i am going to watching LIV vs MANU tonight.
but i probably slept during it but whatever... i'm still gonna support :)

toodles.
Liverpool rockx! no matter they Win or Loose :)

Lee Seunggi - Lets Break Up.

awesome hot humble guy!

i just love watching him in 2 days 1 night <33

he is so humble and thoughtful and handsome.
he has a great look, a great attitude, a great heart, a great mind. <33

he's definitely in my top korean hot guys <3 haha.

changed!

i just changed my layouts and i am very satisfied with it! haha. gladly, it brings more emotion to me. keeping the word emo away from me.

its not that hard, just put on a smile and look at the colourful colours. also, text the person that would make you happy. talk to them!

it made my day wonderful-er.

toodles.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DONGHAE,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU <3

With all my heart, i wish you a happy birthday!

specially to

my adorable fishy, lee donghae :)

p/s: the only fish in my pond. lmao ;P

whatever;

i dont know but i think i maybe, falling for you.
dropping so quickly.

WHY?

its pretty odd but its pretty true.

bored.

toodles.

OUT

la la la la. yesterday was a.... great day. despite the tiredness that i felt.

kekekeke

well, in the morning we ate nasi lemak that ayah lope bought then we watch tv and surf the internet. as usual i went to soshified and onetvxq. i checked the news at 2oneday. nothing happened i think beside wooyoung cyworld update. i dont remember what it was actually about. then, we did some boring stuffs because it was only 3 of us at home. not more not less.. eyh? really? *evil laugh* HOHOHOHOHO

then wannyah got home and we went out. from celcom shop, to the food stall, then to the place where we buy some food and the to the 7E that was so DARK. yes! i meant dark. there was no electricity. so we had to use our motion eyes to see what we wanted to buy. after that we head home.

oh yeah, he texted me from when he got back to school until around 1 something (AM) so like, unlike him right? he should be calling/texting with the girl that he said he likes. he told me that he was tired of layan-ning her.... isnt that great for me? nah... if that makes him sad, i am sad too because i am his friend..

we texted about his day at school, and my day in kl.

toodles

what if

what if.

what if i wait a little longer so that you will realize what we are meant for each other... what if i decided to wait but you never ever realized... what if you are the one for me.... what if i am only thinking that you are the one for me...

there are too many what if to ask and if that is not it, i dont think that it is even necessary to ask what if...

what if it is too late to compose a song for your mum like girls generation sang dear mum. what if you cant say thank you to people because it was too late. what if it was already too late to bring back happiness. what if it is only you. what if i fall for you again and again. what if i questioned myself 'what did i fall for you?' what if i am not perfect for you. what if you cant have the miracle. what if you are too tired holding back the tears. what if i dont want to hug you. what if no one was proud of you. what if you are no one's juliette. what if this love was never true. what if i dont want to ask you to tell me your wish. what if no one tells you that you are so hot. what if you are nobody. what if you never get a boyfriend. what if i say i dont care. what if i be your heartbeaker. what if someone told you that you are a bad woman. what if this is our last farewell. what if i tell you that you are not my key of heart. what if i tell that you are oppa nappa(bad person). what if someone tell me that they cant stand by me. what if i tell you that isnt our endless moment. what if someone asked you to marry you. what if i force you to look only at me. but wait....

what if all of these are lies?

nothing makes sense

feel the music playing in my head.

it is always the same old story from now until then. the korean pianist is singing while playing the piano gracefully. the wonderful voice and sound of the piano makes me drunk hesitantly within minutes.

the meaning makes me wonder why is it the same old story once again.... i can feel his tiredness and sincereness upon this very song.

i feel deeply calm and relax listening to his voice and the sound of piano. i can feel that he really feels this song as if there is a deep meaning upon this song.

the same old story.

over and over again... again and again... only you...

why did i fall for you?

endless moment

what was it?

family or friends more important.

sacrifices. courage.

affection. love. care. hope. fate. eternal. forever. infinity.

through those tall mountains i will climb and promise that i will make sure that i will hold the courage upon my very hand and get what i want.

through those mountains i know tears will be shed once in a while but i will not give up until my last breath. even when it is just few away.

i believe in miracles. every single thing is actually has a tiny small amount of miracle and that miracles are important for each and everyone to follow and believe in such many ways. miracles can make us believe in god more that anyone can. the flames of the surpriseness and the shockness in miracle can make us realize that god is there to make miracles happen when ever god wants to.

a simple thank you is the most adoring that i would like people to give me. sincerely. thank you means a lot if you really noticed the magic that it can bring us. thank you means we appreciate things that others do. it makes us realize that others respect and appreciate us. a simple thank you can bring happiness to many people. a simple thank you can make your eyes teary and your cheeks wet. it can also bring smiles to most person who understand.

happiness is what everyone wants and needs. the joy in happiness is not comparable to any amount of money or things that money can buy. a simple happiness are most likely... affection from the family and friends. the support that they give and the hopes that occurs in every single action they do. happiness is most likely the most important thing in life because without it there would be so little things you can do.

i know nothing makes sense. mianhe.

situation - down

super junior?

M.

yes. the people that sang 'shuppa girl'

hot yet without the M, the group with 13 people is in a thin line. thin line? means in a messed up situation. rumors said, made by the adorable kangin. messed up Korean boy bands situations.

2pm - itself got tons of problems because of jaebum leaving. worse that its the leader and what he did that made him stopped being a leader for 2pm or as the we all usually call him 'leadja'. because of that, the other 6 members wouldn't be on stage together but gladly the jun brothers had promised that the 7 of them will perform together the next time. lets all hope it will be quick. all the hottest thinks that all of this madness is coming from their owner of the entertainment itself, JYP. he is a weird and bad guy. i can even see it from is face. he did so many things to make 2pm look good and now he said that he will continue 2pm as 6 members, which currently sucks. but hottest don't call them 2pm anymore because jaebum isn't here. they call them 6PM. which is weird!

dbsk - because of the suing that have caused by junsu, jaejoong and micky. they said that they were not treated well by LSM or his real name was Lee Soo Man. yeah, that guy!

big bang - daesung, member of b.bang itself, got in a car accident.

OMO!

what happened to Korean boy bands now?

lets pray for the very best.

my dearest,

my adorable fishy Mr. Lee Donghae <3

the hottest hottest

jaebum has the - hottest abs
taec is the - hottest beast
khun is the - most perfect winker
woo is the - most funniest guy
donghae is my - most adorable fishy
siwon is the - most charming smiley guy
kyuhyun is like the - hottest maknae
leeteuk has the - cutest laughter
kangin has the - cutest smile
hangkyung is most likely the - hottest chinese guy
hongki has the - most dashing attitude
jaejin has the - cutest face
jaejoong is the - prettiest guy
junsu has the - hottest singing voice
changmin is the - most manly maknae
taeyang has the - cutest moon eyes
TOP is the - coolest big rapper guy
hongo is the - most adorable attitude
ryo has the - most dashing smile

the followings are my favourite kpop&jpop love.

its not ranked from 1 to 20 but it is sort by groups :

2PM

SUJU

FT ISLAND

DBSK

BIG BANG

JPOP

missing you

i miss...

Park Jaebum (Jay, Leader of 2pm)

a lot.

&

the whole 2pm members.

i miss jay's confidence and happiness and courageness.

i miss 2pm's natural & sincere glares, winks, laughters, odd faces, singing, cute face, smiles & jokes.

1. i miss jay's laughters and jokes and smiles!

2. i miss taec's glare and smiles!

3. i miss khun's winks and smiles!

4. i miss wooyoung's jokes and smiles!

5. i miss chansung's laughters and odd smiles!

6. i miss junsu's singing and smiles!

7. i miss junho's laughters and smiles!

his confidence.

i miss jay's confidence on speaking in korean even when he doesnt get it fully yet.

i miss 2PM's natural and sincere laughters and smiles.

i want 2pm back together with their 'Leadja', Park jaebum.

2pm is not 7, its 1!

2pm forever and always <3

JAEBUM BACK TO SEATTLE

kat 2oneday.com dah confirm. jaebum quited 2pm. ape yang die tulis sangat sedih. kesian die~

Hello, I'm 2PM's JaeBum.

I'm sorry for giving you my last greeting through this letter.
I think it will be hard for me to see you all on stage because of my sorry heart.

I'm really sorry to everyone, and I'm even more sorry to the fans who have shown me love.
From today, I will leave 2PM.

2PM boys, I'm really sorry to the boys and I'm sorry I couldn't be strong as a leader and a hyung and have to leave like this.
However, I hope you will be more cool and charming.

Again, I'm sorry.

JaeBum.

---

JYP Entertainment stated “This has been talked about and decided in a meeting” and that “Jaebum will most likely go back to America.”
he's going back to seattle today, 8th sept. the korean hottest are planning to go to the airport to stop jae. lol. hottest hwaiting^^

---

WOOYOUNG 2PM PASSED OUT AT AIRPORT AFTER SENDING JAEBUM.

skrang kt hospital lagi.... kesian die. lepas jay's plane jalan, wooyoung terus pass out! kesian. tadi call kakqai, sembang2, omg.. to tell the truth, i cried. lolz. bad day today... hope tak ganggu my exam.

my friend pon datang sklh ptg td, die nangis2 lmpat kt saf, tnjuk hp die, jae nak balik seattle. ingatkan nak bagitau die, rupenye die yang bgtau dulu. haha, then ktorg nangis sme2 kt sklh. haha. lawak gile! kesian jay. we hottest will be waiting for him to comeback anytime! jay hwaiting!

PARK JAEBUM HWAITING <3 SARANGHEYO~

@followjyp They aren't 7 people, they're ONE. 2PM is not 2PM without Jay.

@followjyp There is only one leader for 2PM. And he's Jay.

@followjyp We, Hottest, will never stop fighting for Jay, so please allow us to still fight for him.

@followjyp We trust you not to take Jay away from us. JYPE family, please understand us.

@followjyp We stand, believe, and love only 7. No more, no less, no one else.

---

he called me again last night! haha..

formally saying.

"mengganggu ke?"

"tak," i said.

"nak tanye benda biasa," he said.

"tak sure tapi math, pem and entah la," i said...

"okay, thanks~ bye," he said and i hung up.

texted wan about it and he said, "how come kalau aku call ko mesti batuk, kalau die call tak batuk pon?"

lolz!

even i dont know why. HAHA.

wan, tabah wan~ T.T

anytime.. call me.. call me now! (call me by tae goon)

when i saw his name on the caller ID.

i had goosebumps.

its like there were butterflies in my butterflies' stomach.

a second, i thought whether i should answer or not.

i decided to answer.

i pressed the 'answer' button and said, "hello?"

"assalamualaikum..." he said with his low toned voice. ^^

"wa'alaikummusalam," i replied.

"nak tanye boleh?" he asked.

"em..." was just what i abled to say.

"esok ape?"

"ahhh... penulisan and pemahaman," i answered.

"oh. thanks," he said.

"welcome..." i said.

"emm... thanks for the help tadi, sorry tak thank awal2," he said.

"no prob," i said.

"okay, bye," he said.

"bye," i said.

GOOSEBUMPS. AND. BUTTERFLIES!

i helped him tadi... to excited to write.

will be writing tonight, insyaAllah.

toodles^^

and i believe Everything Can Change

EVERYTHING CAN CHANGE^^

Do Do Do Do Do Do

theres no easy way to figure out
What everything we plan
gets turned around

Nothing accidental
gotta doubt to atti
so why'd the things never end the way you think they're gonna be

If all of its sure
is that no one knows it
dont be to quick to decide

Chorus:

cause everything can change
when you least expect it
cant stop but you cant control
gotta learn how to just let go
everything can change
no you cant prefect it
somethings you cant explain

(instruments)
Guy: Yeah
Girl: o.. o o
Guy: do do do do do do
Girl: o.. HO o

theres no easy way to plan ahead
cant wait to get there
but we end up here instead
anything can happen usually does
somethings turn out much better
the way it is with us

CHORUS

(instrument break)

EVERYTHING CAN CHANGE
WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT
cant stop but you cant control
gotta learn how to just let go
everything can change
no you cant prefect it

everything can change
(eveything can change)
cant stop but you cant control
gotta learn how to just let go
everything can change
(everything can change)
somethings you cant explain

Everything can change........

tears vs. smiles

today was kind of okay. a day with tears through our cheeks and smiles on our faces.

okay, when i arrived at school the year 6 pupils were in front of the UPSR Hall. then cikgu kamarul told us to go to the new school halls. we went there and made a straight line. one line for girls and another for the guys. luckily i got to stand beside ... HAHA.

i stood in front of ain and behind aina. then the other pupils came and made their lines too. we had our assembly there and had a special majlis.

MAJLIS MEMOHON RESTU GURU-GURU

- MURID-MURID TAHUN 6.

then the guys got up and salam all the teachers. after that it was the girls turn. we didnt actually know what to say... either "terima kasih, cikgu," or "minta maaf, cikgu" haha.. but then we decided the minute we had to get on the stage.

"cikgu yang pernah ajar & tak pernah ajar, minta maaf. cikgu tahun 6, terima kasih and minta maaf sekali,"

we salam cikgu2 tahun 6 who were on the stage and continued to go down the stage to salam the other teachers. we didnt salam cikgu2 lelaki. but they did 'usap' our head.

after going down the stage, we salam ustazah yong who once teached us agam from year 1 till year 4. she hugged me and i said, "minta maaf, ustazah," then i salam cikgu rosida.

once i took hold of her hand, i remembered the days when there were latihan angklong. we had always took noticed of cikgu yusoff(year 6 mathematic teacher) that we didnt care about her.

she hugged me and my eyes got teary.

then we salam the other teachers and the second i saw cikgu hanizah crying, the tears started falling my cheek none stop... aina was also crying, hanisah was crying like 'hell'.

as i was walking to make a line again, i walked passed through nabeehan and his gangs(azim, syahmi and wan) their eyes were also teary. they 'gosok' their eyes and smiled at me. i who was still in tears and red faced, replied a smile.

most of the year 6C pupils were crying a lot and when i stood beside ..., he asked me whether i was fine because i kept gosok-king my eyes. and i said, "okay, no problem,"

he nodded and turned away.

then we got to the UPSR Hall to study, nothing much happened. except that i found out that pakcik fairuz(ain's dad) told wan when they were salam-ing yesterday, "nak salam dengan pakcik Virus?"

wan usually teased ain 'pakcik virus' and she told her parents. HAHA. i secretly think wan has a crush on ain. but lets not talk about that.

so we(wan and i) kept teasing each other.

he teased me, "makcik *****" which was ...'s mum's name.

i teased him, "pakcik fairuz," which was ain's dad name. i've told that already...

then during a period before 'home time', farhan showed me his 6 years old photo. he told me he got it from PRASEKOLAH. he said that teacher kalai wants the pupils to take their photo back. the guys took it already but the girls havent.

we minta cikgu yusoff his permission but was actually angry that time and didnt gave his permission. what a bummer.

but after the bell and the 'terima kasih, cikgu' we raced to the PRASEKOLAH and took our cute photos back. HAHAHA. the cutest photo among all was Farhan's.

he was so cute back then, not that he is not cute now though.

he changed a lot... (on looks)

okay,

toodles.

1 litre of tears,

hot ryo-kun! chinca! haha..

he is the....

2nd in my japanese hot guys.

haha

as always.

i started falling for japanese guys ranking

'again'

because i watched their dramas and movies.

for ryo,

i watched

ONE LITRE OF TEARS

again.

i love it!

i love ryo!

haha...

omo^^

hongo kanata <33

HONGO KANATA!! <33>
i just fell in love with him AGAIN. HAHAHA. i thought i have lost my interest in Japanese actors/singersbut i rated hongo and updated the ranking.he's 1st! much much much much much more better than others!<3
thanks to kak yong,who let me watch a movie.he played the roll"Riku Okamoto"hottest!
i just love his attitude there~made me miss to watchPrince Of Tennis~

crazier than she is,

i post this post because......

i had nothing better to do.

a few minutes/ an hour ago, i dance to 'gee' and 'tell me your wish' and guess what?!

i felll.... and my leg is hurt.

it still hurts you know but no serious injury.

i am chatting with lisa at FB.

seriously, i dont have anything better to do.

LAZY

oh yeah, i changed my playlist. it contains,

dear mum by snsd and also falling for you by colbie caillat.

i love those songs.

dear mum, i started loving that song when i heard it at a show and they talked about tiffany's mum.

i love falling for you when i heard it through kak qai's profile at MS.

toodles♥

like only a woman can<3

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

She’s kind of perfect
She’s kind of everything I’m not
Yeah, she’s an angel
And it’s amazing how she’s patient
Even more at times I’m not
She’s my conscience
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her

lyrics from: like only a woman can

by : Brian Mcfadden

<33

= = =

it would be fascinating if he said it...

she wears high heels, i wear sneakers...

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?

= = =

i don't know how she (tay) feels but what i know,

i know how i feel,

i feel so heart breaking,

heart breaking that you didn't notice,

didn't notice that i was always by your side,

by your side and always open to forgive you,

forgive you even when you say awful things about me,

about me that i wouldn't forgive if anyone else say...

= = =

he called me this afternoon and we chatted about school.

it has been like 2 to 3 months since he called.

i missed listening to his voice and laughter in the phone.

not that i have 'a thing' with him, though.

♥

= = =

today was such a terrible but awesome but sad but whatever day.

i went to school, got in a fight with nabeehan.

i was the one who started it, i know.

i got mad about something that he said about me,

he said he was sorry but i was like exploding back then,

i told him to go back to his old place.

i know that may sound harsh, i know i am wrong,

ain and aina said that i said the right thing,

but i felt guilty,

but i didn't want to apologize,

i have E G O.

i got mad at him very badly,

it was the worst i guess.

i didn't even look at him after that.

in the evening, wan called me and said that nabeehan was very sad that i said things like that,

well, i really felt guilty.

after a while, nabeehan texted me.

he asked me about our English homework.

i was relieved that he still texted me even when i get mad at him.

i asked him whether he was offended about the things i said,

he said....

he were but not anymore.

he said he was sorry and he will never say anything about it again, THANKS NABEEHAN (:

he told me, "how can i stay mad and offended of my bestest weird-friend? come on! HAHA"

thanks nabeehan but....... i am not your bestest weird-friend... well...

i think i am and I'm loving the title

= = =

you belong with me.

toodles ♥