what if

what if.

what if i wait a little longer so that you will realize what we are meant for each other... what if i decided to wait but you never ever realized... what if you are the one for me.... what if i am only thinking that you are the one for me...

there are too many what if to ask and if that is not it, i dont think that it is even necessary to ask what if...

what if it is too late to compose a song for your mum like girls generation sang dear mum. what if you cant say thank you to people because it was too late. what if it was already too late to bring back happiness. what if it is only you. what if i fall for you again and again. what if i questioned myself 'what did i fall for you?' what if i am not perfect for you. what if you cant have the miracle. what if you are too tired holding back the tears. what if i dont want to hug you. what if no one was proud of you. what if you are no one's juliette. what if this love was never true. what if i dont want to ask you to tell me your wish. what if no one tells you that you are so hot. what if you are nobody. what if you never get a boyfriend. what if i say i dont care. what if i be your heartbeaker. what if someone told you that you are a bad woman. what if this is our last farewell. what if i tell you that you are not my key of heart. what if i tell that you are oppa nappa(bad person). what if someone tell me that they cant stand by me. what if i tell you that isnt our endless moment. what if someone asked you to marry you. what if i force you to look only at me. but wait....

what if all of these are lies?

nothing makes sense

feel the music playing in my head.

it is always the same old story from now until then. the korean pianist is singing while playing the piano gracefully. the wonderful voice and sound of the piano makes me drunk hesitantly within minutes.

the meaning makes me wonder why is it the same old story once again.... i can feel his tiredness and sincereness upon this very song.

i feel deeply calm and relax listening to his voice and the sound of piano. i can feel that he really feels this song as if there is a deep meaning upon this song.

the same old story.

over and over again... again and again... only you...

why did i fall for you?

endless moment

what was it?

family or friends more important.

sacrifices. courage.

affection. love. care. hope. fate. eternal. forever. infinity.

through those tall mountains i will climb and promise that i will make sure that i will hold the courage upon my very hand and get what i want.

through those mountains i know tears will be shed once in a while but i will not give up until my last breath. even when it is just few away.

i believe in miracles. every single thing is actually has a tiny small amount of miracle and that miracles are important for each and everyone to follow and believe in such many ways. miracles can make us believe in god more that anyone can. the flames of the surpriseness and the shockness in miracle can make us realize that god is there to make miracles happen when ever god wants to.

a simple thank you is the most adoring that i would like people to give me. sincerely. thank you means a lot if you really noticed the magic that it can bring us. thank you means we appreciate things that others do. it makes us realize that others respect and appreciate us. a simple thank you can bring happiness to many people. a simple thank you can make your eyes teary and your cheeks wet. it can also bring smiles to most person who understand.

happiness is what everyone wants and needs. the joy in happiness is not comparable to any amount of money or things that money can buy. a simple happiness are most likely... affection from the family and friends. the support that they give and the hopes that occurs in every single action they do. happiness is most likely the most important thing in life because without it there would be so little things you can do.

i know nothing makes sense. mianhe.