Trust,

I've been thinking a lot lately. I've been busy.
I've been drifted to something i liked so much that i forgot about every single thing.

i admit, my life is full of lies. i need a break from every single thing I've been doing and feeling. i want to forget everything for now but i cant. i want to but i cant. i am just too weak.

these past few days, I've been dreaming and minding my own business like a different person that what i really am and i was i thought that i was very satisfied but...
i noticed that i actually changed. i changed a lot. i am not the person i am before.
i don't know whether its a good thing or not. i truly cant decided to be the person i was before or the person i am now.
i missed my old self but i am happy with my new self.

what i know about myself now is that, I've become more happy, loving, caring, understanding, thoughtful on the outside. I'll admit that i cried a lot too but those tears were full of reasons.

i pity faqihah because right now she likes a guy that likes someone else. worse, that someone else is kind of close to me. that means i am kind of stuck in the middle. i don't know what i should do. don't think explaining to the guy would do any help because he doesn't like her anymore. i hope everything would turn out good.

I've been close to her lately which made my people started talking about the reason i wanted to be close to her. its not what you people are thinking. i sincerely want to be close to her again because we used to be so close, like sisters. since the rumor started around at school, they've been saying i had a 'different' reason to be close to her but that was NOT it. if you're reading, then NO, i sincerely feel i want to be close to you again... like sisters. its not because of him. not even close, you should trust me in this. i know you do but i just don't want others to poison you with their lies. sincerely....

you! ha ha. I've been wanting to tell you something but i couldn't. i didn't have the heart. but i am being very calm now.... i don't like you. sorry. but I'm glad that you do. i wish you all the best in life. i guarantee you'll find someone way way way much more better than me. at first, i thought this was a rumor but then i started to notice it. i am so damn sorry because i don't like you. we're just going to stay friends because i know that is way way way better :) i guarantee~

:) okay, huh! I've been feeling cozy around you somehow. i am glad that we could be friends. I'm glad we could start talking. I'm so glad i have someone to count on somehow. i am glad you can accompany me when i am bored. i am glad you are open to me now. i am sincerely glad that we are open to each other now. its nice knowing you better. its nice being friends with you :)

I came apart inside a world made of angry people
I found a boy who had a dream
Making everyone smile
He was sunshine
I fell over my feet
Like bricks underwater

How am i supposed to tell you how i feel
I need oxygen
Oh baby if I was your lady
I will make you happy
I'm Never gonna leave, never gonna leave
Oh baby i will be your lady
I am going crazy for you

And so i found a state of mind
Where i could be speechless
I had to try it for a while
To figure out this feeling
This felt so right
Pull me upside down to a place
Where you've been waiting

and You don't wanna keep me waiting
Staring at my fingers feeling like a fool

Tell me what you want,
Baby tell me what you need....

Oh baby if I was your lady
I will make you happy
I'm Never gonna leave, never gonna leave

seriously....